March 10, 2010

Another day dawns, as I knew it would…It’s not as if I could stop it from coming. I would have at least tried if I thought it would make a difference. Maybe skip this day altogether, but I haven’t been able to in the past – and I doubt it will happen in the future. I’ve had to live through it – I will live through it. I have a God that is big enough to get me through it. Memories are like a button (the kind you wear that have sayings on them) you look at them and think – that’s pretty cool, or funny or something else that gives you a laugh, chuckle, smile…but sometimes – if you’re not careful – they can poke you, they can hurt. But, even though you may get poked, bruised, jabbed, that button is still worth it.
As I remember this day, March 10, 2010, and I know that I haven’t seen him, spoke to him, touched him, laughed with him, cried with him or hugged him in six years…I haven’t done any of these things – and yet, I think of him – and think happy thoughts. I think sad thoughts too – but mostly happy ones.
I Love You Daddy.

Your Little Girl,
~Heidi Lucille